I cannot speak her language, my mother,
Yet it calls to me, distorted to my hearing.
I answer with a borrowed tongue, born of subservience,
Patched with fragmented understanding, a disharmony.
My tongue is no longer raw, flagrant, and unburned,
Devoid of the carvings of civilization.
I, once the wood of a forest uncarved,
Am now crafted and shaven down for amusement.
They draw to me, my father’s hands,
Wrapped in the tapestry of heritage,
Soiled with the dust of the earth he kissed to honor our elders.
Draped in the dull fabric of modernity,
I envy their crowns, Geles, and Filas.
Coated in shea butter and the esoteric patterns of the Ori,
Our ancestor weeps at her loss to the gods of stone, glass, and chrome.
Her children are hers no more, drowned in the tides of modernism,
The weaving of her rich clothing unwinds at my betrayal.
Tomorrow, I begin to weep for my own children,
As they do not speak her language either and have no home to return to.
Glowing glass screens promise to trace the branches of a family tree with no trunk,
And numbers point to cultures that are now only names.
My children remain orphans of a culture I have drowned,
But when I plead with the ghosts of my ancestors,
Hoping to mend the severed ties with our shared blood, scarlet threads,
I remember that I cannot invoke spirits whose tongue I do not speak,
And whose gods I have scorned.
Jesimiel Williams is a writer from Lagos who crafts stories and poems about life, nostalgia, dreams, and the greater themes of our world, often infused with metaphorical and esoteric undertones. His work also explores Fantasy and Modern African narratives, blending vivid natural imagery with the worlds they observe. Jesimiel shares his short pieces and poems on social channels, and when he isn’t writing, he enjoys immersing himself in films, music, and other forms of art that he finds exceptional.